Tits McGee aka Hitomi Mochizuki

[beetlegirl]

Time and time again, she's saying that she isn't here to boast her physical appearance - but she is!

As someone mentioned, the fact that there is an entire thread dedicated to her physical attractiveness because she posts sooooooo many self-promoting images already says something.

If she is happy to be a naked granny in the future - like she says she is as if she is gracious enough to accept the loss of her physical beauty with time - then why is she so concerned with her appearance right now to the point of eating disorders, preferring to look smaller than bigger, wearing makeup to hide her acne scars etc. Why?

If she is using her physical appearance as a poster-girl for spirituality, then why is she ALSO wearing a lot of makeup while doing so? If she wants to be one with nature, why is she wearing products specifically made to alter one's face to be better looking?

I really despise this insincerity.

The thing is, there is nothing wrong with promoting your own attractiveness online for whatever reason. You got a rocking body and you worked hard to get? Show it off girl!!! You lost weight and/or you finally learned a makeup style that you feel beautiful in? Take a goddam selfie and post it for posterity!!! It only becomes very disingenous when you do that but insist that you don't care about validation or that you are an ethereal spiritual being who has transcended beyond worldly beauty standards. Its pure horse crap that its almost comedic. For someone who claims to seek no validation when showing her playboy body, she sure feels the need to say over and over again that its not for validation.

A bit off topic, but on her most recent instagram post the posted a picture with a long ass caption that basically said she was afraid of men. I commented something like "Excuse my ignorance but how can you be afraid of men and still have a lot of casual sex with many of them?". A few hours later my comment wasn't there anymore.

Idk her experiences but it's definitely possible. I was abused and was pretty scared of men and still I'd have a lot of 'casual sex' because I had zero self esteem and had been taught that being sexually used meant that I was loved. I wanted attention and validation because I hated myself and couldn't giv it to myself. So, it is possible

[DreamyCat]

Time and time again, she's saying that she isn't here to boast her physical appearance - but she is!

As someone mentioned, the fact that there is an entire thread dedicated to her physical attractiveness because she posts sooooooo many self-promoting images already says something.

If she is happy to be a naked granny in the future - like she says she is as if she is gracious enough to accept the loss of her physical beauty with time - then why is she so concerned with her appearance right now to the point of eating disorders, preferring to look smaller than bigger, wearing makeup to hide her acne scars etc. Why?

If she is using her physical appearance as a poster-girl for spirituality, then why is she ALSO wearing a lot of makeup while doing so? If she wants to be one with nature, why is she wearing products specifically made to alter one's face to be better looking?

I really despise this insincerity.

The thing is, there is nothing wrong with promoting your own attractiveness online for whatever reason. You got a rocking body and you worked hard to get? Show it off girl!!! You lost weight and/or you finally learned a makeup style that you feel beautiful in? Take a goddam selfie and post it for posterity!!! It only becomes very disingenous when you do that but insist that you don't care about validation or that you are an ethereal spiritual being who has transcended beyond worldly beauty standards. Its pure horse crap that its almost comedic. For someone who claims to seek no validation when showing her playboy body, she sure feels the need to say over and over again that its not for validation.

A bit off topic, but on her most recent instagram post the posted a picture with a long ass caption that basically said she was afraid of men. I commented something like "Excuse my ignorance but how can you be afraid of men and still have a lot of casual sex with many of them?". A few hours later my comment wasn't there anymore.

Idk her experiences but it's definitely possible. I was abused and was pretty scared of men and still I'd have a lot of 'casual sex' because I had zero self esteem and had been taught that being sexually used meant that I was loved. I wanted attention and validation because I hated myself and couldn't giv it to myself. So, it is possible

Sorry but that sounds pretty contradictory and confusing. I understand having been through abuse, having your self esteem pretty much destroyed, and then constantly seeking out men to have sex with in order to feel valued and validated as a woman. However, that doesn’t have anything to do with fearing men. Fear is knowing that something is threatening in some way and wanting to avoid it as much as possible. I’m sorry but fear of men would be to not approach them at all. Seems to me that Hitomi saying she was afraid of them despite having a lot of sex with many of them is a way to excuse her promiscuity because she feels guilty. Instead of just accepting that she is promiscuous and that being promiscuous affected her deeply (because she seeked, and continues to seek validation from men even though she denies it) she prefers to blame it on “fear of men”, which again, doesn’t make any sense. You fear something, you stay away from it. Now, being afraid of loneliness or self hatred is another thing, but hitomi was specifically saying that she was afraid of men. She needs to just admit that promiscuity has done nothing but harm to her instead of promoting it as “sexual liberation”.

If you could explain to me why you feel that you feared men despite still having casual sex with them I would appreciate it because it doesn’t make sense to me. What exactly was that fear? How do you define fear? If you still had sex with them, where exactly did that fear come from? The fear of not being validated? I ask this because it seems to me that in order for someone to say that they are afraid of men despite having sex with them means that they are confusing the fear with something else or prefer saying they feared men in order to not feel guilty.

[slicker]

No one has to explain shit to you. Everyone processes their trauma differently and you don't get to dictate how anyone reacts to anything they've been through. Your entire response is problematic and TRIGGERING as fuck.

[DreamyCat]

No one has to explain shit to you. Everyone processes their trauma differently and you don't get to dictate how anyone reacts to anything they've been through. Your entire response is problematic and TRIGGERING as fuck.

The other user was the one who started talking about their own experience. Sorry if I “dared” to ask why she thinks such contradictory things. Just because people process things differently doesn’t mean they can choose to change their story whenever they feel guilty about their past actions. It’s called denial and Hitomi is the epitome of how denial can harm you. There is a difference between reality and processing. Since the other user brought herself into the story and compared herself to hitomi I asked her to explain hers and Hitomi’s contradictory statements.
Jesus, and I thought the people at PULL were sensitive. Don’t bring out your story if it “triggers” you or if you don’t want people questioning you on a freaking gossip forum.

[slicker]

What you don’t understand is there’s nothing contradictory about women fearing men on a general scale, (honestly, who doesn’t in this society?), being abused/violated by them, and still being attracted to or seeking validation from them.. or maybe not even seeking their validation - just enjoying sex. In both the case of the other user AND Hitomi. The human emotional spectrum is way more complex than you just made it out to be. And yes, it’s offensive.

[DreamyCat]

What you don’t understand is there’s nothing contradictory about women fearing men on a general scale, (honestly, who doesn’t in this society?), being abused/violated by them, and still being attracted to or seeking validation from them.. or maybe not even seeking their validation - just enjoying sex. In both the case of the other user AND Hitomi. The human emotional spectrum is way more complex than you just made it out to be. And yes, it’s offensive.

I am very aware that the human mind is very complicated. The way in which we perceive our own actions and our own thoughts are also different from how others see us or from how we really are. However, just because the human mind is complicated it doesn't mean that you can always blame your mistakes on your mental health or that you can twist the reasons as to why you did something to make people feel sorry for you or to never take responsibilities for your actions. For someone to say that they fear men, yet at the same time, for that same person to also seek out sex and validation from them, there must be a problem with how the person is perceiving their own actions and intentions. Again, it doesn't make sense from an outside perspective. Even if Hitomi genuinely believes she was a afraid of men it doesn't mean that its true. Like i said before, it might be that she is scared of loneliness and feeling worthless, but instead of realizing that what she really is afraid of is of not feeling validated by men, its easier to convince herself that what she really was afraid of was men. Men are a part of that fear, but men are not the direct source of the fear; the fear comes from her own self.

Convincing yourself of something doesn't mean that its the truth or reality. Human minds are complicated in the sense that our thoughts and actions don't always match reality. It's the basis of pretty much every mental illness or behavioral disorder. Hitomi's actions and reality (promiscuity) don't match her thoughts or statements (fear of men). Its textbook maladaptive thinking. Read these two sentences:

"I willingly sought out men constantly for sex because I was afraid of them"
or
"I willingly sought out men constantly for sex even though i was afraid of them"

There is so much wrong with that kind of thinking I don't know why anyone would hear any of those two sentences and think they make sense. For her to be convinced of having a fear of men despite that, it means that she has convinced herself of that in order to avoid guilt, reality, or other deep rooted traumas/issues that she may not even be aware of. I don't understand how I was offensive. Isn't that the whole point of this thread? Countless of times people on this thread have stated that she is delusional and that her "spirituality" doesn't match her severe self-objectification and sexualization. She is not mentally stable, and we all know its not just speculation since she has talked plenty about her mental issues such as depression, body dysmorphia, self-harm, suicidal tendencies, etc. Its clear she has some deep rooted issues when it comes to her sexuality and that she hides under a veil of "spirituality" ,freedom, and false happiness to make it seem like everything she is doing is good and okay. Deep inside her there is a lot of guilt and shame, if that wasn't the case, she wouldn't need to pretend she was spiritual and would embrace and accept her self-objectification as many other instagram girls or female youtubers do with no shame.

[Heyholetsgo]

Do we know if there is a wearilive post? Homegirl deserves one

[style savvy]

Do we know if there is a wearilive post? Homegirl deserves one

viewtopic.php?f=703&t=34400 it's pretty dead

[Heyholetsgo]

Do we know if there is a wearilive post? Homegirl deserves one

viewtopic.php?f=703&t=34400 it's pretty dead

Jesus is that hrhcollection?

[smartypants]

This girl Hitomi gas sooo many issues. I didn't read the thread too much so sry if I get some things wrong, but she seems like she went though something traumatic. But the trauma wasn't dealth with properly, so she let the trauma define her. I am sorry if this sounds disgusting but she looks like she wants to be reduced to her tits and waist. The way she looks into the camera... she sells herself like an artistic pornstar. Whatever.

[DreamyCat]

Did anyone see this video? Its about one of Hitomi's half sister, Laura. I'm not sure how to feel about it, especially the comments that always call Hitomi a beautiful angel. I do think its pretty sad though, and sort of shows how messed up Hitomi's family is, especially her mom and why she is the way that she is.

For those that don't want to watch it, here's a brief summary:
-Hitomi's mother gave up Laura for adoption. I believe she was the first child she ever had.
-Laura talked to her biological mom for the first time when she was 18. When Laura asked her mom if she had any siblings, her mom lied and said she only had one when she really had 4.
-They stopped contact for a while after that. When Laura tried to reach out again, she didn't hear anything back.
-When they got in contact again, the mom told Laura about another sibling she had
-Hitomi then states that even though Laura lived with another family with more money, Laura still had a troubled childhood just like her so they both would have ended up being the same way regardless of who they grew up with.
-Hitomi found out about Laura from their mom through the phone
-They both have been through substance abuse
-Hitomi mentions that even though her parents weren't around that much, she never had to deal with not knowing where she came from in the way that Laura did.
-Laura always wondered why her biological parents didn't want her, so her adoptive parents eventually helped her find her biological mother.

(Irrelevant but Hitomi looks so old , crusty and oily in that thumbnail and video. Lighting really does wonders... I guess its true when they say stress and unhappiness ages you fast)

[beetlegirl]

Time and time again, she's saying that she isn't here to boast her physical appearance - but she is!

As someone mentioned, the fact that there is an entire thread dedicated to her physical attractiveness because she posts sooooooo many self-promoting images already says something.

If she is happy to be a naked granny in the future - like she says she is as if she is gracious enough to accept the loss of her physical beauty with time - then why is she so concerned with her appearance right now to the point of eating disorders, preferring to look smaller than bigger, wearing makeup to hide her acne scars etc. Why?

If she is using her physical appearance as a poster-girl for spirituality, then why is she ALSO wearing a lot of makeup while doing so? If she wants to be one with nature, why is she wearing products specifically made to alter one's face to be better looking?

I really despise this insincerity.

The thing is, there is nothing wrong with promoting your own attractiveness online for whatever reason. You got a rocking body and you worked hard to get? Show it off girl!!! You lost weight and/or you finally learned a makeup style that you feel beautiful in? Take a goddam selfie and post it for posterity!!! It only becomes very disingenous when you do that but insist that you don't care about validation or that you are an ethereal spiritual being who has transcended beyond worldly beauty standards. Its pure horse crap that its almost comedic. For someone who claims to seek no validation when showing her playboy body, she sure feels the need to say over and over again that its not for validation.

A bit off topic, but on her most recent instagram post the posted a picture with a long ass caption that basically said she was afraid of men. I commented something like "Excuse my ignorance but how can you be afraid of men and still have a lot of casual sex with many of them?". A few hours later my comment wasn't there anymore.

Idk her experiences but it's definitely possible. I was abused and was pretty scared of men and still I'd have a lot of 'casual sex' because I had zero self esteem and had been taught that being sexually used meant that I was loved. I wanted attention and validation because I hated myself and couldn't giv it to myself. So, it is possible

Sorry but that sounds pretty contradictory and confusing. I understand having been through abuse, having your self esteem pretty much destroyed, and then constantly seeking out men to have sex with in order to feel valued and validated as a woman. However, that doesn’t have anything to do with fearing men. Fear is knowing that something is threatening in some way and wanting to avoid it as much as possible. I’m sorry but fear of men would be to not approach them at all. Seems to me that Hitomi saying she was afraid of them despite having a lot of sex with many of them is a way to excuse her promiscuity because she feels guilty. Instead of just accepting that she is promiscuous and that being promiscuous affected her deeply (because she seeked, and continues to seek validation from men even though she denies it) she prefers to blame it on “fear of men”, which again, doesn’t make any sense. You fear something, you stay away from it. Now, being afraid of loneliness or self hatred is another thing, but hitomi was specifically saying that she was afraid of men. She needs to just admit that promiscuity has done nothing but harm to her instead of promoting it as “sexual liberation”.

If you could explain to me why you feel that you feared men despite still having casual sex with them I would appreciate it because it doesn’t make sense to me. What exactly was that fear? How do you define fear? If you still had sex with them, where exactly did that fear come from? The fear of not being validated? I ask this because it seems to me that in order for someone to say that they are afraid of men despite having sex with them means that they are confusing the fear with something else or prefer saying they feared men in order to not feel guilty.

oops, I forgot about hitomi and this thread and disappeared after causing confusion haha. I will gladly explain as best as i can.
I was sexually and emotionally abused by a man. I had never had a relationship (romantic or sexual) so my body automatically learned what it could from there (I didn't have any other experience to compare + it was an older person with experience who supposedly had the knowledge).
My brain basically started to learn the abuse as a normal relationship/love. So, I started to think that giving my body up as an object was showing love, that I couldn't say no because if it got this one person upset (me saying no to sex) then that would always make people upset, I basically equated being used for sex and my emotions not mattering (only the other person's) to a loving healthy relationship. BUT, of course, I was hurting. Because I am a human being I have reactions, and so when I was being forced to have sex, or when I was walking on eggshells not to make the other person mad, etc, I was hurting, I was fearful, and I was very, very stressed.
And also, because I'm human, after being beaten down and made feel like i fucked up (eg. I said no > made him mad > ruined the happy relationship), I quickly started to lose self esteem and self love. So, I started to look for it in the same person who took it from me; when you have no self love, any kind of attention seems good to you, because you are desperate. And because my brain had already understood that letting my body be used and abused (instead of saying no) brought approval and "happiness" to the other person, that meant I was doing good, and thus that I was good — someone was giving me value.
I was terrified of the abuse; I constantly tried to have dates outside of the house so he wouldn't be able to get sexual, I said no very few times (I quickly learned that wasn't an option), I had disassociation a few times during the act, I counted the minutes for it to end. I got anxious every time I walked the path to the apartment where it all happened so many times.
And despite all this, I longed for the approval that being used by him brought me. Abuse breaks you down in a way that you feel you deserve and need to go through it to be something.
After I got out of this relationship I spent a lot of time being promiscuous but I could never get close to men. We would have sex and my brain would process that attention as love and validation and it felt desperately good, but as soon as the second time rolled around my brain went into panic mode. I TRULY believed that this man was trying to have sex or touch me again because he only wants sex and I'm gonna be abused again and I can't fight back and I'm in danger and... I always got so paranoid I cut ties with them. I couldn't look at them, all I saw was an abuser, despite them being innocent people. Yet, I wanted them to look at me like that, because it meant I was worth attention, that I was special, that I had value. And I desperately wanted someone to value me, because I couldn't give that to myself.
That was quite long, but hopefully it made sense. So I feared men immensely (still have leftovers of this), but want them so bad at the same time.

Side note, but also remembering that abuse victims are people and we are also sexual, so it can also be super conflicting to feel sexual arousal and thinking that isn't right/is dirty because of past experiences. Recovery is a rollercoaster...

[beetlegirl]

I also wanna point out that I have 0 problems with hitomi showing off her body and slut shaming arguments can be debunked too easily on this day and age to be used anymore... besides, it sells and that's just a fact. Everybody sells their image, this is just another person doing it. my problems lie much more on she possibly having disordered eating/disordered thoughts (I know she had eating disorders and it never really leaves you) and it portraying it to an audience and this clean, spiritualized thing, when real life isn't like that, and with body image you have to be super careful on what you put out there because this shit can kill people. Especially if you have 0 specialization on it and also naturally have certain body features that cater to society's beauty standards...
she's scarily thin and I honestly don't even think she sees it.

[bananie]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=roX2A5JI0tE&t=25s

so she moved into a new place with other roommates... guess she and her bf broke up..?

[DreamyCat]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=roX2A5JI0tE&t=25s

so she moved into a new place with other roommates... guess she and her bf broke up..?

But I though open relationships felt so real and authentic and you can still love the other person??? /s

Not surprised. He most likely payed for most of their apartment expenses and now that they’re not together she needs roommates to afford living in New York with her measly YouTube salary. What I’m confused about though is about her app which is owned by his ex bf or whatever. Is she still gonna have that crappy app?

[Qgc+]

Was just gonna come here to see if anyone saw her new video lol. I wanna like her so bad but something just seems really inauthentic about her to me. However she does seem like a sweetheart. Just....like she puts on for the camera often. Which I guess would make sense since this is her job. But then again, is it really?

[wheresmymango]

Hitomi made me feel so uncomfortable in her recent " a week in my life ".when she kept talking about her lesbian experiences in detail . She wasnt even looking at the girl the entire time . She just kept talking. Um i would look at the person im telling intimate things to see if they even care. Ultimately she finally looked at her when she said "have you ever been with a girl "? Just tell her straight up that you wanna fuck her Lol. Im saying this cuz it is so creepy when someone obviously wants to but they arent direct about it . The girl looked very uninterested and ready to fall asleep . The scene cuts after the chick answers . Hitomi says life is so short something about lesbian porn.Hitomi is now using her "spiritual" channel to pick up chicks lol . Well at least dont be a weirdo about it

[wheresmymango]

Also what really disturbed me about the above video is we occasionally see brief glimpses of the REAL Hitomi . She is very nihilistic at heart . If she actually believed in her spiritual beliefs , they go hand in hand with reincarnation. But she says she thinks life will be over soon anyway .Personally when i studied spirituality, it actually helped my life. Some use spirituality as a form of escapism.I remember watching this guy named Nature Boy , while he is extreme , he is hypersexual , he used to exploit his body as a gayporn star.Now a days he lives in nature with a bunch of technology and wives he recruited off of instagram. He pretty much "escaped society " the same way she says she wants to. I just see a lot of future cult leader potential in Hitomi so lets make sure that doesnt happen

[DreamyCat]

Also what really disturbed me about the above video is we occasionally see brief glimpses of the REAL Hitomi . She is very nihilistic at heart . If she actually believed in her spiritual beliefs , they go hand in hand with reincarnation. But she says she thinks life will be over soon anyway .Personally when i studied spirituality, it actually helped my life. Some use spirituality as a form of escapism.I remember watching this guy named Nature Boy , while he is extreme , he is hypersexual , he used to exploit his body as a gayporn star.Now a days he lives in nature with a bunch of technology and wives he recruited off of instagram. He pretty much "escaped society " the same way she says she wants to. I just see a lot of future cult leader potential in Hitomi so lets make sure that doesnt happen

I mean, she already looks like a cult victim. She has that look in her eyes, idk how to explain it, but she looks like she's not really there. If you see any documentaries or videos about people in cults, they have the same lost look, almost like they are possessed. She's been suicidal before so im not surprised she has a nihilistic attitude of doing whatever feels right and not caring about the consequences, which only ends up being self-destructive. She is always talking about feelings and what feels good and right without realizing that feelings are not reality. She is living in a fantasy world that will end up crashing on her terribly one day sooner or later.

[chatot]

she reminds me of those Tumblr girls back in the day that wud reblog black and white pics of skinny white girls w thigh gaps over a fake deep caption about life or depression or something lmaoo