Also sorry for the consecutive posting but I've wanted to say this for a while.
I was friends with Rachel back in middle/early high school through the Internet. If Rachel is reading this, she probably knows where from. We were fairly good friends, calling each other on the phone and texting each other all the time, giggling about boys and how everyone in our town sucked and how we wished we could meet in real life, that sort of thing. She was awesome and real and super sweet, and when she made it big, we didn't talk anymore (we both gravitated from the forum where we met on the Internet), but I was happy for her because I knew that she had a lot of potential to do something serious like this. She was a great writer and really knew how to make you love any character that she would write about, and I was really stoked that she gained this following on the Internet because I thought she would use her bubbly unique personality and great writing skills to propel her forward in her life.
I was wrong.
Sometime within the last year, she genuinely took a bad turn. I'm not sure what happened, but she started being rude and lashing out to her viewers, divulging too much information on the Internet, and just being much too abrasive for my taste. Where's the sweet girl I once knew who was genuinely appreciative of her followers and had a true love for writing, makeup/beauty, fashion, and herself? All of a sudden she became unhappy and yet continued with her Internet persona, most likely because it was comforting to have a following of people who loved her when she didn't love herself.
I continue to watch her videos hoping that I see a glimmer of her going back to her old self, maybe heading to the gym, finding styles that suit her body type, toning down her look, and becoming generally less abrasive. I get that her 'thing' is being sassy and edgy compared to other gurus, but it gets out of hand a LOT.
I wish that she would go back to the person she was, and see that she is genuinely a good person if she would just tone everything down a bit. I know a lot of people really like who she is right now, and that's great, but the people who knew her before her Internet persona are all genuinely shocked at how she acts now and wish that she would go back to the girl who was carefree and genuine.
Rachel, if you do read this, which is unlikely, you most likely know who I am or at the very least where I am from. The last time we talked was when you were moving into your first apartment with Chris and you were so happy and so excited and I was excited for you. I hope that you find solace in yourself and find happiness, because I know it's within you, but something is preventing you from finding the path.